Dear Gabrielle:

So you keep observing what is going on. You having cheated is part of it but there are more to see in what is: you may not like who he is, you may not want a relationship with him… The fact that you cheated on him does not mean you are now permanently on the Wrong and he is permanently on the Right. It does not mean you must repair the romantic relationship. It only means you did him wrong, then you sincerely apologize, make appropriate amends, and move on. Re-evaluate who you are, who he is.
anita