I know the person I would like to be but I just can’t seem to bring myself to be him. It is easier being me

Let’s look at that statement again.
Do you really know the person you’d like to be? Have you fleshed it out in detail? Written it all down?
Is this ideal self so great? He may lack the good qualities you have now.
So you say it is “easier being me”. Do you mean you prefer to be the lazy version of you? Do you really know who “me” is?

I think you’d benefit from meditation or mindfulness. get some distance from your thoughts and emotions. You may discover there are some positive thoughts in there as well.
Maybe it is a matter of accepting the imperfect version of yourself.