Hi Anita,

I don’t want to run away as I don’t want to delay things in moving on with my life.
I know I can;t deal with this at the moment and I need time away so I can find the strength to accept, let go and move on!
You are right it is fight or flight and I have fought under attack and not proud of it but now I have no more fight and don’t want to as if he wants to leave my life, then there is the door as I deserve so much better and won’t beg for someone to fight who doesn’t want to.
He is too selfish to me married and he will regret his decision when he wakes up from his anger and resentment, sorry I mean grow up and it will all be too late as I will not take him back this time as he has messed me mourned far too many times.

It is his birthday today and I am glad he will remember this day in the day he finally lost me because of his own selfish ways.
Will go way for 2/3 weeks and then I will come home and start divorce proceedings and told him start the house proceedings asap as I won’t be here