Anita,
Yes serious conflict with what I have done is correct, but it has obviously not stopped me from doing so. That is a part of me that I need to figure out and deal with. I agree my own responsibility it to myself and I hope that maybe he will see this and see that he can be a better person but I can’t be a good person and be with someone who is not. Like my father said, ‘you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make them drink’. I can tell him, show him, help him but he will want to do this on his own. I can’t do it for him. And if he is not able to do it for me then he needs to let me go as well. Or is that a selfish thought?