Dear bevan:

To your question: in my deepest despair I contracted, withdrew, cut off my creativity and became the minimal me, just so to survive. I did not at all create or manifest marvelous things.

Fear does it, excess, ongoing fear makes people shut down as much of themselves and keep minimally alive. What you are experiencing, is life stirring in you, an awakening of sorts, anticipation of expanding, of becoming more and more of what is possible for you, of what is in you in potential, waiting to materialize.

I can’t think of anything more exciting. Do you have any plans of experimenting with what this expansion is going to be about: experiment with this and that… writing here is one such experiments… an acting class? Something where you will not be grading yourself for performance and instead be engaged in the process, fully engaged?

anita