@Melissa: You are a wonderful human being. Thank you so much for making me feel less alone. And you’re right. I dont want to throw in the towel. This man is a wonderful person. He does “see” me. He cares about me. He loves me without judgement and he holds all the same morals as I do. I want this to work out, which is why I’m here. I want to know the next steps. I want to know if wanting this to work is the right answer. I’ll try your recommendation. Thank you.

@Ryan: I can so relate to your post. The words you used are very similar to the things my psychiatrist discussed with me. I would love to pick your brain a bit more. How else do you deal with the wiring so it doesnt drive you completely insane?

Thank you to everyone who has posted here. The support and love is really helpful and even though I’m struggling, makes me feel a bit more sane, a bit more normal, and finally not alone. Thank you.