Hi anita,

it’s been a while since my last message. Thank you again for having the time to reply so kindly.

I am still torn between letting go or having hope.
Actually, I have tried moving on many times, reading his breakup words, reading the message saying he wasn’t in love with me anymore. But it seems impossible. My head and heart won’t believe this is over so I find myself wondering if this could be some sort of insight or inner voice telling me this isn’t over.

Anyway, after our message I spoke to his sister and one of his best friends and found out none of them knew about the breakup. 2 months later and no one knows. She even told me she tried talking to him during xmas because he was acting weird, but he shut her off.

Also, I messaged him asking about my things, if he had sent them to my address. But he only answered me with a YES after I sent him another message “Is it so hard to say yes or no?”.

Knowing now that he hasn’t told people about the break-up makes me so much more confused. Does it mean he’s unsure? Or simply avoiding comments from people? Because he cannot hide this fact forever.

In my desperate attempt to find some peace, I’ve been much more devoted to the spiritual part of my life. In this process I went to the church, to a a famous gypsy, to a spiritualist center, to a tarot reader… If someone told me they were good, I would give it a try. And to my surprise they all said the same thing: the two of you will be together,

At first I was so relieved! So many people were telling exactly the same thing plus what I wanted to hear and whenever I prayed for God asking for a sign I would get one. But after a while all these future readings became a burden. They make me more confused. Is it possible for someone to see the future? Is it possible for God to actually give me those signs? Am I going crazy?

My heart still hurts and I made no progress in moving on…