Hello Matty,

Thank you, your wisdom game me strength, I am actually crying and trembling- very torn– and when I read your words again and again it settles me down. Yes, you are right; the mentor and my inspiration is no longer there also technically we are not allowed to communicate with him due to biz agreement upon separation they had, so if you can imagine I do not know who to cling on- of whose business ethics I need to pursue, clearly the opposite of the new management- which does not also represent me- as a human being.

I look like crazy now, crying in my office- scared ( though there is no tragic thing happens) but yes it was the self esteem that has been drained. The fear of uncertainty that eats me out. The disappointment on myself that I let them get all of me, in everything I do I am generally kind, and will give a 100% value in work and now it’s time to be kind to myself…

Matty you are an angel, I hope to progress from here and keep you posted. As soon as I get back to my real self, which I miss so much, I will give back to this community. Bless you.