@Lonely88 I understand and feel your pain inside out, I know what it is like to give yourself up to someone and they just throw you away like you don’t mean anything. I would also consider this a blessing for you because think about it in this way even imagine if you had kids with this person? Do you think it would still prevent her from breaking it up? Would you really want a wife that is dishonest and doesn’t know what she is doing with herself? Or even know who she is? From what I can see is that you’re a nice man and nature one day will reward you with someone that would respect you and thrive for your attention. Another thing I realized is that people are sometimes too busy picking up stones one day they’ll wake up and realize that they’ve lost a diamond. You honestly did the best you can for this girl, you gave her everything but she is was too blind to see what you could do for her. What I suggest you do is work on yourself put this wonderful energy in you and become the best version of yourself. I have a few suggestions I would say engage in disciplined physical activities martial arts, or get yourself a gym coach and start killing your body in way you thought was never possible. Feel good about yourself because you’re a wonderful person so do what is best for you now and not for anyone else.