Thank you @dreaming715 for taking time to read my story and also @asher .it feels nice that we have the same experiences and there’s still people out there that you can relate too ..your absolutely right @dreaming715 time is your best friend heals every wound, but with me it’s going for 3yrs and I still carry this pain n lost love for this girl. on the other hand she’s busy doing her self that she forgot our history we once upon time had..@asher don’t get me wrong bro I took her for granted and maybe didn’t giver her enough love or could have treated her better. I guess that’s probably one reason why I can’t move on because I’m beating my self up of how maybe I could have prevented this from happening if I only did things different.it’s funny @asher that you mention the part about kids because I would say to my self only if maybe we had a child with each other maybe that could have United us together back again n honestly asher this woman turned my life upside down yet I’m still crawling she left me on 2013. On 2014 when I didn’t think things could get worse, well it did it got worst I went to jail then lost my job so I’m back to where I first started off after high school with nothing .we actually don’t talk to each other unless I decide to call but it takes 2 to conversate n I guess that why I limit my self to call her because she puts no effort on trying to see how I’m doing and we’ll u know jus general neutral conversation. For some reason she thinks she doing better than me or is better than me. Well I guess I can say she’s some what is doing better than me because she was able to keep her job reason why I lost mine because depression hit me very bad over this breakup n as u can see it didn’t bother her on bit .but I guess she believes she’s better than me because I had no choice but to move back with my parents bc she kept the house we was living (renting) n well she’s not struggling as far as oh I need a new couch etc. Bc I left her all well furnished everything brand new so she doesn’t know how it feels to not have nothing and to start from the bottom n so maybe that’s why she thinks she’s better or doing better than me n I ask my self how are u better than be when your out there doing same as I am partying n getting wasted .and she also looks down on my friends .but I really did take the extra mile to show her n prove her how much truly I loved this girl and how sorry I was .but she doesn’t believe in 2nd chances I told her I was young n immature , but honestly ppl I never thought I would go this far as far as talking to couselor or going to therapy to try to save a marriage or relationship I guess that’s prove how love truly is a powerful thing that would make people do thugs out of their nature .guess you don’t know what you have till you loose what you had .look forward to hear advises,opinions. Feel free to correct me my friends thanks