Hello Strawberry,

“I feel like people don’t want to be around me unless I’m participating in drinking/doing drugs/partying.”

Yeah I feel ya because I wouldn’t want to be around people if that’s all they wanted to do. I practice Bikram yoga http://www.bikramyogaaz.com in Paradise Valley and the secret for me is, that I’m now going to share with you and to whom ever reads this. Is that when I start practicing for 90 minutes, I go into auto-pilot with all the postures and escape into my own little zen world. Every now and then I’ll snap out of it for a few seconds but then I continue on with my own spiritual meditation. Maybe it’s the time of day that I’m at my peak, with my body clock because I’ll get into the studio by 3:00pm, to start class by 3:30pm.

I’d say keep practicing the yoga (which ever one you’re practice) and enjoy it for yourself. If it’s hurting you that bad, then maybe don’t go for awhile until you feel better. I’m sorry you’re hurting so bad like this, my heart goes out to you because I know how you feel. It’s difficult I know, don’t give up hope on anything, as many beautiful things can happen at any moment for you. You won’t be alone forever, your ex may come back. Do continue to socialize when you’d like. You are a beautiful and loving soul that will be loved and accepted by the right people, don’t ever believe or think you are not worthy of friends and or love again.

I think it’s so great that you make food from scratch, as food is so much better that way when you create food with your won hands. Have you tried going to an outdoor local farmers market to buy fresh produce? It’s a lot of fun and a great way to casually socialize with the vendors. You’ll learn a lot. I’m going to mine tomorrow before lunch time. It’s been one of my most favorite things to do during the week, is to head to my outdoor farmers market.

Strawberry, don’t give up on yourself as you will be happy again. I know life is in-consistent but always remember that you always have control over your own happiness. However, If you do feel it’s still hard to find happiness, you know where to find people to lift up your spirits and support you. It’s here on this forum and website. None of us are perfect and we all have our good and our bad days but you will get through it with love.

Sending you lots of love, positivity and light your way.

M.