Dear anxiousangel:

I already offered an activity: you standing, looking at your hands (one or both), making a gentle fist, and relaxing it. Do it again, a few times. Slowly. Focus on the sight of your hand/s as you do that and the feel of the gentle squeezing into a fist and the relaxing.

When I suggested it you told me about the one week … fancy meditation you attended. And this is my point: you think you know a lot and you do, only not in ways that stick. So it is not the .. fancy of what you attend and do, it is doing the simplest things with new awareness. It is doing things with a Beginner’s Mind, as if you didn’t do them before. Unlearning what you learned too quickly and doing things slowly, as if for the first time.

anita