Story, part Seven:

“all friends were progressing doing MBA or MS in USA. HE felt left behind.
he wanted a change, one final settlement to the identity question. where no one asks who u are.
IAS is that exam in india… he wanted it for identity,status,recognition and as a stage to express his potential…it helped his image at work as he claimed i m doing IAS so i m not interested in mining career. he had carved a source of praise and appreciation.
he went to delhi fr a year taking leave and studied there. college friend was there, stayed with him and earned his respect as an aspirant. (An aspirant, a potential, one aiming at a goal)
…impressed the teachers and girls. he was getting attention and praise. people believed in his potential… he exaggerated his job entitlements to impress ppl further. met a girl in class K. she smoked was open minded. got attracted as had nvr seen a girl like this. he was sex starved too since college. he is 26 now…knew only one way to woo a girl, the fake love way.
she confided in him and told him every thing about her…
he failed at the second stage and was back to his job. his goal may hV GOT MISALIGNED TO RATHER IMPRESSING PPL ABOUT HIS WORTH AS A CANDIDATE RATHER THN CLEARING THE EXAM.
back at job, ppl praised and encouraged him… conduit deliver.
he was ready to try again. this was the only hope. he started. meanwhile K fell fr another guy and dumped him…he had ended his relationships always not the girl. it hurt his ego badly. he suffered in pain, hated her, even clinger on to her. but she had moved on and he was suffering,
but exam too demanded attention. this time he was lonely, no friends,girl attention and increased pressure. he tried fr girl attention but didn’t get any…. he was now burning from inside…as the was no body to praise him or love him..his self worth dashed. but he was trying despite all odds. still got in the act of impressing fellow students and new teacher that wat a special talent he is, and again everybody believed in him.