I will definitely do it, Anita. At least in these next few weeks, will try to change myself in that regard as much as possible. Still, I don’t feel using profanity or having violent thoughts can ever be good. That truly needs to be weeded out. I cannot go around saying “do you want XYZ to get (insert fatal disease)?” and other stuff I mentioned. Right now, ever since the incident with Jerry, I have not used even a single swear word and tried my best to control my irritation too. Due to some situation at my place right now, my grandma was passing comments that normally tick me off a lot, but I was able to tone down my irritation with the help of articles I found here, and diverted my focus elsewhere. Dunno how long it’ll work.

I also must make up to Jerry. It’s not something that can happen so soon or easily… and patience is a virtue I’ve not had much yet but I need to develop it for her, to prevent doing anything bad out of impatience.