Dear Ann:

I am tired at the moment and would have liked to read your last post more attentively, and I will, later. For now, two comments:

You asked: “Can a human stop listening to themselves and ignore everything the body is signalling”? My answer is Yes, absolutely, only the body will not stop signaling until you do pay attention. Reality does not accommodate anything but seeing reality for what it is. Confusion means you are not seeing reality for what it is. You are seeing here and there and mostly you are in the dark. Turning the lights on- and confusion gone! Only turning the lights on (in this context) is a process, not a one time event.

When you wrote in this very last post: “Only he did not think we had problems – he thought I was the problem, my thoughts and my mind.”- All the times he delivered to you this message, in so many words, every time, it is like he was switching the light switches off and keeping you in the dark and you let him. That sentence in itself is very revealing, on its own. The guy is manipulative and cruel, manipulating you to keep being confused.

I hope you never go back to living with him, it is dark over there. Comfortable at times, I understand, but dark and your confusion will be welcomed there with him. He will keep turning the lights off on you so that your confusion will continue.

Don’t go back there, please! Stay where you are for now, and get used to the light. See more and more of what is….

anita