Yes, my dad is much more passive and though he’s not much more understanding either, he does care for my feelings enough to leave me alone and not say anything if he feels it’ll hurt me (with rare exceptions). I told my mom to leave me alone at least 20 times today and each time she pushed me more and more with all kinds of non-stop lecturing. It’s what used to annoy me a lot even in years before and she just doesn’t understand. I do understand she’s worried about my future but after all I had assured her that I’ll study when my mind is at peace. And truthfully, if I do wish to be with Jerry then qualifying these exams is crucial, to make a good career and be good enough for her family. But I just can’t find the motivation to study due to this situation.

I can’t say whether Jerry had been worried about this all along. She appeared very shocked when she finally found out about my feelings, but then I don’t understand why she said that “I had to talk since the call was costing you money” thing regarding our phone call; trying to deny that she felt comfortable talking to me. I did feel that blocking me in this manner was an overreaction. Dunno whether she’d have done it with anybody or because she truly loved me as a brother. Then again, I presently am only worried about being back on speaking terms with her again. The relationship part comes far later. I probably would not be feeling so upset about this situation had our last interaction not been that awful fight and all the horrible things I said. I just pray this is resolved amicably and we’re on good grounds together again.