Thank you both for being so kind and replying to me. After this incident I thought humanity was dead but u reminded me that people can be caring. To Matt, I cant even think of things I use to enjoy. He has taken my joy away. I feel like I should go to italy and beg him to take me back but the ounce of self respect I have left wont let me.
To no one….I am sorry that u feel the way I do. I wouldnt wish it upon my worst enemy. The feeling that someone has snatched the life out of u is more painful than labor. I am taking this a day at a time. He really did make me feel like I am responsible and I put him on such pedestal that I believe him…like really. I need to stay strong and pull myself together. This blog is helping me a lot. I hope u never get to the miserable place I am in. I wish u all the love in this world.