Hi Donna,

Well firstly I completely empathise with your situation, and feel for you. I totally get the fact that other people being in similar situations and offloading on great websites such as this one can maybe ease the pain a little. Must be awful for you doing a more difficult job for less money. Its easy for me to say from the outside looking in but how would you feel about staying there until you find a job you are more happy to do maybe, depending on your situation, but I know its not that easy to do. Being out of work is scary, and Im guessing you feel whichever you do you wont be happy.

Well I set a leaving date for 31 May, but manager called me in to see if I wanted to stay a few months longer so Im still there. Reason being I couldn’t face the thought of the emptiness of being off work and collecting benefit so put my CV out to employment agencies. However this opened up a completely new can of worms.

As I am writing this I have never felt so lost, confused and frustrated. I actually got 2 job offers (temporary posts). One of which I worked previously and basically I couldn’t decide what to do. I didn’t want to stay where I am and I didn’t want to go back to where I worked as the role is not an enjoyable and its working on same floor as a girl who I had a short relationship with is there. On the positive side it is a good company with a nice atmosphere and a longer contract. I just couldn’t decide – the pressure I felt was nothing like I have ever experienced – I felt whichever I chose would be wrong and I would regret it. I had no confidence in my decision and changed my mind several times a day. Consequently I beat myself up about not being able to make a decision.and felt grass was greener on other side whichever I chose. I felt anxious and sick.
I felt helpless. Most people would be pleased they had 3 job offers but it was my worse nightmare as didn’t want to make a decision. This sums my state of mind up… I told the agency I was staying put Wednesday afternoon at their deadline of 4.00. I felt unsure and wasn’t convinced and had lost all rationale by now – the next morning a rang the agency and changed my mind – I am now leaving and handed notice in today. I felt happy at the time but now wish I hadn’t changed my mind – am I going crazy?I never used to be this indecisive. I know what jobs I want and have been happy at work in the past but believe life is too short to be unhappy at work.

I hope it all works out for you and would be interested in your decision.

Best wishes

Scott