Hello Scott (and everyone on this topic),
I am new here, just found this website because my work life has come crashing down around me this week, and I was online searching….for something,you know that search for “something” when you don’t even know what it is.
. I have no actual advice personally for you, but wanted to tell you that if nothing else; just hearing you describe your situation echoed so much the place I find myself in now, and it just felt so good to not be alone in it. I realize your post is a few weeks old now and It is my great hope that you made a decision and have felt strong in it.
The situation you described is so awful, you feel so kicked down that you literally can’t even decide which slice of bread to put the peanut butter on and which slice to put the jelly on right.? Much less make some kind of important decision that will impact your daily life and your ability to eat and pay for a roof over your head. UGH, its awful. My workplace of close to 20 years has called me out and told me that I have not pulled my weight there this year and now I can leave or stay with “restructuring” and a pay cut. Which is what I believe its all about to begin with, they want someone to be paid less. But to have my work that that I couldn’t have put more into being called into question has cast a spell on me almost! I feel so low that I can barely hold my head up. I saw none of this coming. And it seems the restructuring will involve a type of work that is just so far beyond what I feel capable of right now, and for even less than I was already making. And I’ve barely been making it. Total paycheck to paycheck living situation already. Now I can’t decide if I want my self worth more, to tell them they are wrong and I am leaving, or stay and deal with my near -paralyzing fear of being without a job and not two nickels to rub together. I know in every crises there is also opportunity, but oh this stuff hurts. And life is too short.
What did you end up doing, if I may ask? And more importantly; how do you feel about which decision you have made? I am not glad you and the other participants have to go through this, but I will say knowing we are not alone in the not terribly productive “depressed-with-fears-and-need-to-make -important-decisions category” ..helps. So much right now.
Best,
Donna