Hi Stephanie, I had to stop by to say hi and share for a bit. I was in a very toxic relationship for four years. The damage this can do to someone is quite intense. these toxic people are genius when it comes to destroy every little bit of their partner’ sense of self, selfworth, respect until there is nothing left. that is what they do. So I want to say that first of all, you had the courage to leave and that, Stephanie, says a lot about who you are. I am not surprised the least for how you feel right now. but try to hold on to that reality: You had the courage to leave. many of us can’t and i know for a fact because it happened very close to me while i was growing up. Sadly, this member has never left… and i watched a woman who spent most of her life living in a constant state of fear, humiliation and manipulation. She lived most of her life without herself… Finding the strength to leave is extraordinary. Try to hold on to this for a while. It will take time but you can do it. It is in you. People mean well by saying things will get better. Of course, they care and they want to reassure. what i am going to say to you: Not the things that are going to get better. YOU are going to get better! YOU are going to rebuild and heal the injuries caused by this toxic relationship because you may not feel it right now, but you have power and you have control… YOU are going to be able to embrace life as she comes (the good and the bad….) with warmth