Leina..you are NOT stupid for thinking that at all!! It is normal… no it’s not helpful but as I can see from this forum…it is in us all! And even knowing that is enough to simply accept that part of myself (and yourself) and try to just understand it, not punish it… all our insecurities and ‘bad’ thoughts are like little children…they will scream and act up until they are heard…and I for one did not listen to that frightened little girl inside me for a long time. It was when I let her have her say and listened without judging, did she slowly but surely quieten down… It is a process.. and although we think it is ‘their’ fault… (the guys ie) it is actually our interpretation and what we do with the situation that has the power to heal us. I am so happy to have come across your post yesterday.. there are no mistakes or coincidences… it was meant to be.. I look forward to hearing how you get on!
Anne