Remember: The past does not define who you are. I know, easier said than done. Trust me, I need to be remembered myself at times. There is a beautiful japanese proverb that goes: Fall seven times, get up eight. As simplistic as it may sound, you made a mistake, you fell down and now you are getting up and that is what counts. you are not saying forget these people, you sound very honest and sorry. use this as a catalyst, not as a barrier… you are still young… i am sure that many of us here can say the same: at least i can, i too have to do it, get burned even if friends family warned me…. i too seem to do the same mistake over and over until bingo: eureka. i got it. tired of getting burned. it is a process. it is all a process. i looked for quick fixes, solutions, formulas, tricks… most of my life. i have decided to approach my issues differently this time. paying attention to spiritual and most of all: Living and being in the present. I have ran away from it for too long. I have ran away from myself for too long. feeling awkward, clumsy, useless, the one who always had to learn the hard way, who does not listen… who cannot remember to listen… Now, I finally realize that many have similar issues, that my head, my thoughts, have been the ones who tricked me for so long… so the answer, for me at least, is in me: TRUST. best wishes,