Hello everyone. I am new here and am so grateful that I found this site. I helps me enormously in day to day life. I have been dealing with chronic illness for 18 years now, since age 18. My health seems to get worse year after year. However, there is a blessing that has come from this. I feel my spirit is getting stronger day by day. I feel as though the illness has awoken something inside of me and I now see life in a different light. I see God in all things and am able most days to feel very grateful for all that I do have. I am blessed in many ways.
I do find it hard to not let the illness become who I am. I have so many symptoms as most of my body systems are affected and that alone can pull me down. I have to fight to not go into the pity party, or question the “why” of it all for very long. I am struggling with the isolation of it all as well. It seems that my healthy friends (what ones I have left) don’t understand the chronic illness issues and now I feel that they don’t understand the side of me that has “awoken” to the spiritual side of life. I feel like of like a misfit right now. When I start talking about God or how nature makes me feel centered, or meditation, they look at me like I am crazy..lol.
Anyway, I just wanted to say “Hi” and that I am grateful for this stie and the ability to meet new people that do understand how I feel and the opportunity to learn and share with others.