I can definitely relate to your situation even though I didn’t marry that person.. I too have been in that kind of relationship which lasted for 2 years and maybe 8 months of giving that person a chance since she asked for forgiveness which I thought was sincere.. I was blind for that 2 years and 8 months I have been fooled for a reason that I thought that person loved me but when I knew that she was cheating on me and that she was just using me, my world fell apart.. she broke up with me for another person back then and then we got back together after a month because she admitted that she made a mistake so I gave her a chance.. 5 months later something was bugging my mind and maybe I felt that something was wrong so I checked her email and boom I read a lot of messages conversations between her friends that she was just toying me the painful part was that she three timed me and hooked up with my friends ex without me knowing.. and then I forgave her after that because she again asked for forgiveness so I gave her a fourth chance then I caught her again then gave her another chance because she begged.. but during this last chance this 5th chance that I gave her something changed within me its like I’ve been trapped with emotions of paranoia, suspicion, insecurity and the like.. and then I kept asking myself am I still happy? and I wasn’t anymore.. so I broke it of with her funny thing is that she didn’t run after me anymore..after a week or so she began flirting with someone else and I was shocked on how fast she can recover because even though I was the one who broke it off I was really falling apart.. then after a month she was with someone else.

you know what’s been bugging me how does she do that? saying “I love you” to different persons at the same time lying cheating for the sake and fear of growing old alone.. I can’t seem to forgive and forget what she has done as of now but maybe someday I’ll get there.. I know it sounds bitter but I’ve blocked her in all my social networking account and just severed our communication.. I did that for myself because I fee so helpless here she was happy and okay and carefree.. as if I didn’t exist, maybe because I was the only one who invested my feelings and time to her and well she never did.. It still hurts but I need to move forward I’m falling apart but someday I’m gonna be whole again.. it’s hard but life goes on..