Danubelle,

Yes, I can see you want to know which way you’re supposed to go, and looking outside for yourself for that! No wonder the wheel spins! This is why it becomes confusing when we regard synchronicity as signposts… when we are conflicted, so are the signs.

I’ll try it this way. 🙂 The universe is fertile to our desires, so it is not about “where should I go” but rather “what does my heart want”. You are not separate from the process being lead on a journey, you are the captain. The beauty of the universe flows through us. So the question isn’t “what does the universe want with me” but rather “as part of the universe, my loving intentions are the light that guides me home.” We have to drop the struggle between this way and that and let go. That’s when the path in front of us lights up.

I accept your urgency, and respect it. That turmoil pits heart against mind… as we sit between a rock and a hard place. Its like a being stretched across a gap with fingers on one side and toes on the other. The only solution is to let go of both sides… soon the air rushing around you will remind you how alive you are, and the path home shines brightly. Can you see how much of your energy and creativity is being consumed by the conflict between what you want to do and what you think you’re supposed to do because of factors you cling to?

Perhaps if JAC’s words resonate with you, they are good to follow. Your heart already knows… it doesn’t really need JAC or Matt or anyone else to decide for it.

With warmth,
Matt