Dear Jean:
* Regarding the football game: could he have arranged for you to join him, it being such an irresistible offer for him?
Regarding the more important issue: your relationship with your own feelings, particularly anger, and the second guessing, if you want to communicate about it further, we can, when you feel calm, when your thoughts are not scattered.
When and if you are ready, can you tell me what you were taught, as a child, about feeling angry; when you were angry as a child, how did your parent/s respond to your anger?
anita