I’ve really been having a rough time lately. My current job is not the one for me. I live in terror every day that they will find some sort of error and let me go on the spot.
I’ve been trying for a new job. I’ve had a few interviews, but, though I get close, I’m still not getting the offers. Just this past week I had an excellent second interview and one of my references even got pulled but I didn’t get the job. I’m not sure what I did(n’t) do. It was crushing. I was sure that I had it.
I feel like a failure. I don’t know what I’m good at, if anything, and I can’t find anything that I could move to. Even if I get an interview I’m afraid I won’t get the job. I feel old and useless. Worst of all, I’m depressed beyond belief and I don’t see any sort of future for myself. I just want to stay in bed and not face the world.