You know what the tough job is to find your problems. The ones that are stopping you to get something. At least I am proud of myself for this that I can identify my problems.
And I don’t even give a damn to find solutions to end it. I am still trying and will be.
I am Deep, age 24. I have a problem on taking decisions and buying things. what happens with me that I take so much time when it to comes to take a decision. An example is like my mom wants me to shift to a new room. And she wants to live with me. I too want the same. But she kept telling this on intervals and I too replied the same thing that I will find an option.
It has been 4 months of this talk and still I cannot make a decision. The problem is my monthly wages which is stopping me to take that. Being with your family you need at least Rs. 20000 to survive in a typical Indian city. I am getting 16K at the moment. I need to save first then with all my heart I want to be with my family.
Sometimes I feel like time is running out and what I am doing. Still no savings. I am confused. And speechless. May be this will sound to you like a shit what I am doing. But I am not clear like crystal water.
I need help and suggestion.
Secondly, regarding uncertainty, when I have no money, I think like when I have it, this will be the first thing I would buy. And then this and then this. But when all of a sudden I got some, I cannot make a decision for what should I go for. Again the decision making problem.
How you can be so precise that without any second thoughts or without other’s opinion you can take your own decision.
May be I give people more priority because I don’t want to hurt others. May be I don’t want to leave those who resides in my heart.
What should I do?? Any help…. please…………
I know for the first time I have written something and it is hell looking like a letter or something. But beyond of that I need some suggestion that can end these mind boggling thoughts for me. I want to be myself.
I would appreciate your response.