Dear Giovanna:
Friend 1 told you that you are “her reason to live”- how sad. I hope she finds another reason to live. I think she probably does have another reason to live, the same reason all living things, plants and animals have to live, that inborn drive, to live, to survive.
The fact that you kissed friend 2 should not be a reason to not live, not friend 1’s reason and not your reason. A kiss is not a crime, especially not when you are not in a committed relationship.
When a person tells you: you hurt my feelings and now I have no reason to live- that is dishonestly manipulative, intending to make you feel very badly, as punishment. And friend 1 was successful- she succeeded in punishing you, in inflicting pain on you. Do you agree?
anita