Okay so this might be a long post, sorry in advance haha.

So hi! I’m a 20 years old girl currently studying industrial/product design. I just started actually, I’m finishing my first semester. These days I’m having trouble to focus. A couple of months ago I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life and because of that I was quite depressed. I almost applied in business school because I figured everyone goes to business school. A week before the application deadline, my sister convinced me to not go in administration. She told me to try Industrial Design. I looked up the program and found it interesting so I applied and gave up business school. My school doesn’t require a portfolio in the application process so I got in with my grades. I applied out of pure curiosity compared to my classmates who are here out of pure passion for the field. I don’t think I have a passion for it, but I like my classes.  Anyway, I don’t regret not going to business school because I prefer creative works (my school is not focused on the engineering part of ID but more on the design and the conception of products)

It’s weird because since the semester started, I’ve found myself wanting to learn so many skills and it’s getting me confused.

There was this conference at school about Moment Factory ( you can look it up, they specialize in multimedia scenography) that kinda shifted my ”mindset” all of a sudden.

I wanted to work in illustration/animation since I was a kid but I don’t have the talent for it now. I can draw but I’m not that good though I got back into it thanks to my drawing classes at school. I wanted to own a coffee shop and an a small independent animation studio during my adolescence, but again it was just a dream that I kept pushing away because of lack of skills. And now after attending that conference, I find myself going back to those dreams and wanting to learn about a lot of other things too.

I’d like to have my own coffee shop, and start a small animation studio, I’d like to learn about graphic design, visual effects and sound, motion design, animation, illustration, filming, web design, montage & editing, photography and scenography. I want to use my industrial design degree not to build and sell products but to work in the movie industry and video game industry, to help create concerts, venues and exhibitions. I want to do projections and installations like Moment Factory. It looks like I want to do everything that is related to visuals haha

But also want many hobbies all of a sudden. I want to learn many languages and be a polyglot. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I want to do yoga and kickboxing. I want to try surfing and skateboarding. I want to travel everywhere and blog about it. I want to be able to draw by hand, to do digital arts and to use paint like watercolours if I want to have an animation studio (which doesn’t make really sense because I know people who works in animation have years and years of experience, most of them drew since they were little and they never gave up unlike me). I want to learn how to dance too.

And it’s all weird because I want to do all these things all at once. Yet I don’t know where to start. I’m not depressed anymore but I’m as confused as I was when I didn’t know what to do with my life. Is it normal? I find myself wondering why I can’t seem to focus on just one career and if I should change my major.

Anyway, I don’t know if I make sense because it’s all messed up in my head, but I cant stop thinking about it haha. Is it possible for me to do all these things? Is anyone going through/went through this same situation?

Thanks in advance!