Hi Liv,
As both Anita and Nick have excellently stated above, contentment comes from within and taking time to view your current situation from afar would certainly provide time to reflect. Simply saying your not good at anything, is just putting yourself down, if you believe you can’t do anything, you can’t expect to accomplish anything either. That’s a one way road. Accept that you struggle doing things, but don’t let that be your crutch. This scenario is no different to being afraid of the dark and just putting a blanket over your head, it’s still dark outside, the blanket hasn’t ended you fear. The blanket is just a distraction from confronting the dark itself. It is of course, sometimes great to be distracted from everyday obstacles, but at some point or another you have to address the overall question. Why am i afraid of the dark? In your case, beside the superficial reasons (paper work, colleagues, job opportunities etc.) why do you truly dislike what you do? Why does it have this effect on you? It make take a while to figure out these reasons, or even figure out the right questions; so consider this another chapter in this journey called life.
As i have discovered, age is a number, age doesn’t equate to worth or maturity and clarity of decision. I have met many 30 + year old’s who act like children. We are raised to believe adulthood brings us some sort of clarity, respect because we got older, not because age makes us wiser necessarily. I think it makes everything a little more hazy. We have so many responsibilities, for ourselves and for others.
Try not to see your degree as a one way shot into a job. Many jobs nowadays are multifaceted and require more than just a straight degree in a practical area. Maybe look for work in fields that could utilize the skills you have gained from other jobs. You will have transferable skills, skills which go over and stick with you for ever. I used to work in hospitality and now attend university, studying linguistics, i’m 25 years old, and on the superficial level nothing transfers. How is baking going to make studying languages easier? 🙂 My work ethic, time management, attitude, ability to work under stress, all came from hospitality. Don’t look at ‘paper’ skills, look at the ‘personal’ skills you have developed. Whenever you start a new job there is a learning curve, in fact, some occupations will re-train you anyway because university/ college are horrible at educating graduates with life skills. Also don’t just look at college as a pre-requisite to get into employment, opportunities exist, no matter how bad things get, there is always something out there. Maybe take jobs that are easier, casual positions, part-time, because they will be just that ‘a job’. It may give you time to think about your next move.
I hope this helped, i wish you the best, but know that others have come before with the same issues and problems. You are never alone.
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