Dear anxiousangel:

I never heard the term “information management” before I read it in your post. I like coming across something for the very first time. Information management, is it a term you coined? You wrote it means lying, I suppose ongoing lying, remembering what you said to whom and having any new information consistent with future information?

As I was reading your post about being layered and not your authentic self I got the feeling that you are already your authentic self, because of the originality in your writing, including in the use of the term Information Management (new to me).

Basically, because people judge a person by his father’s profession, in India (outside on India, not unheard of, to say the least, to be judged by one’s family, wealth, position..!) you have been hiding from people and lying about your father’s profession. Maybe you had to.. manage other information to fit with the first lie, that is where your father/ parents live, in what kind of a house, etc.

If this is basically the information you managed, then you managed information not really relevant to your authentic self.

You didn’t want to be judged by what is not relevant to your authentic self. You hid and lied about what is not relevant to your authentic self.

What do you think about this concept I last expressed here?

anita

Anxious Angel,

I just want you to know that we are here to support you in any way we can possible. Just take it slow, each step at a time is progress. Be patient and be kind to yourself. It will take a lot of soul searching to figure out how you’d like to go about your future and remember you know yourself better than anyone else. Look forward to the day you become your authentic self by allowing yourself to experience love. Your happiness matters and should always be your #1 priority in life. Even if you’re opening up to your girlfriend 25% that is at least a good start and keep persevering. Allow your soul to shine bright & radiate the beauty inside of you. 🙂

Sending you lots of love, positivity and light your way.

M.

Dear anxiousangel:

You asked me to elaborate on my previously made point about you managing information that is not relevant to your authentic self. I wrote: “…You didn’t want to be judged by what is not relevant to your authentic self. You hid and lied about what is not relevant to your authentic self.”

What is a person’s authentic self? One thing it is not, is the profession of one’s parents and the wealth and social status of one’s parents. These things: profession, wealth, social status of one’s parents is very influential in one’s life, especially in India at present. Influential but not authentic is my point.

Let’s say you are born outdoors in a very bad weather: raining heavily, storms, winds… you as a baby are hardly surviving the tough weather, cold, wet… (even with the mother taking care of you by covering you, feeding you, etc.)

This tough weather you are born into, is it part of your authentic self?

That weather you are born into is powerful, but the little person born into it, is that person different than if you were born into a pleasantly warm, quiet day?

Awaiting your answer and will continue then…

anita

Dear anxiousangel:

I am thinking that your information management (I still like your coined term) is obviously something that bothers you, robs you of energy, distracts you and you need to change it, stop it..or otherwise, you need “a shift” as you called it.

And I am also thinking that your information you hid from others is not information relevant to your authenticity. The hiding of it may be relevant, not the information itself.

I suppose it is something you need to peacefully accept, somehow, your social position into which you were born (the weather in my comparison), accept that social position, accept your father’s profession as the random circumstance of your birth, not as the authentic essence of who you are.

When you think about your father’s profession, the social stratum into which you were born, how does it make you feel? Do you feel ashamed, angry, fearful…frustrated, enraged…???

anita