I have had a tough yr, have been with my boyfriend for about a yr. He is one of those people that is a straight shooter and doesnt beat around the bush. There are alot of bad habits and things i do that frustrate him and he is trying to help me change.
I have alot of self doubt and with this help he is giving me i have realized how negative my mindset is and how much self hatred and self doubt i have. i feel i am lazy and give up easily.
Next yr i want to change and have a positive mindset as i can see where my life will go and i am not happy about that at all. I am an only child so am very selfish and has put a massive strain on my relationship and he about to give up. This is the last thing i want and i dont want to be selfish anymore. I aspire to be more like him although alot of the time i give up or my negativity over powers what i want and i give up.
I am not sure what the first step is after realising and wanting to change.
Any help would be greatly appreciated, was thinking about doing the buddha course