hey.. it’s been 1,5month ago since my ex left me, out of sudden. it was a LDR, we planned that i will learn a language and eventually move there and start working in his country, because it was just more suitable for both od us. he’s older, has a house there etc. we were together few days before, then one day he didnt respond for my msgs and the other day he told me he’ve met someone and he has bigger feelings for her than for me and that he wants to end things up. we were not too long together, just around half a year, but after all the planning, I love yous and being told so many times i’m great and amazing, lovely, the best what happened to him after a long time…. I was just absolutely confused and broken. I could imagine all the things we planned together, family, life in his house, what he wanted to rebuild and change with me in there. and suddenly all was gone. from one second to another. I went throuhg almost all stages of grief, or at least it seemed like it, I felt like I almost accepted it. but I didnt for sure. Now for around 3 days i’ve been miserable. i cry like it was 3days after the breakup, i miss him, want to call him, or go there and hug him, be there in that place that was supposed to be my home and it felt like home back then. I still see every detail of this house and I miss my hypothethical life there incredibly much. I miss his smile and his heartbeat. i fell really sh itty and dont know what to do more. Everybody says it needs time, but It’S kind of relapse for me, i thought I’ve already been close to get over him. now I feel like i will never be over him. I feel like I will never love anyone. I cant imagine being with anyone. mentally not even physically – when i imagine that i feel sick. anyone else but him touching me in my head feels soo wrong. Today i felt like – okay i’ve been told so many times how great i’m, but why am I not great enough?? i want my life back, but i know i will not get it. and i’m miserable. i feel like no one will be better for me ever, no one will click with me so perfectly, no one will ever attract me physically not to feel sick when i imagine any kind of contact…:( i’m scared to stay alone. i thought I’ve found somebody i will have a family with, which i could never imagined before. it breaks me, that he’s somewhere there not thinking about me, being the one who wanted the breakup and I’m here, thinking about him more or less every day…. I was actually excited about moving to another country, because i think i always wanted to try that even before I!ve met him. I was just too scared to go alone. and it seemed so real and lovely… ohhhh shooot…:( now I partially know a language, but i lost that future and i feel like i lost my chance, not just with that relationship,but also with that leaving abroad thing:(( He is german. I cant listen to german song not to cry, even at work, so not a big chance for me to continue with learning that…. I just feel miserable, and really really want it to stop. I do all the things people tell me – i go out, spend time with my family and friends, i have work that i really like and it pretty much saves me, I have some travelling plans for next 1/2 a year…. but ….thanks for all possible helps and responses.