I have only one thing to say about that, my believes and spirituality is the only thing that kept me form intentionally hurting my self, and I once was this close to stab my heart with my pocket knif which at the moment was beside my bed, and I was in this between awake and sleep state and I keep imagining it over and over for hours, to the state that I was afraid to move and that when my belives and spirituality tagged in. Any way I did not do it!