I’m a bit apprehensive about talking about thus, I’m more than a little ashamed to basically blurt out my shortcomings in social situations and how terribly I think I’ve handled it so far, especially to a forum of strangers. I guess now I’d just like a little outside advice.
So, I basically only have about two close friends outside of my family. I’ve known and been friends with them since we were about 11. Now both of them are heading off to University and because of a multitude of reasons, I’m not going to Uni.
We seem to have grown apart over the past month, and my last chance to see them before they head off was today. But I had a test today and I couldn’t rebook it. I told then I couldn’t meet up but I didn’t even tell them why properly because I was too scared to face the issue with them. For fear of judgment I suppose but, I know they’d never judge me for that.
Times for my family and myself personally are pretty hectic as well, though I won’t go into detail.
Now I feel as if I can either make the effort, apologise and try to keep up with long distance friendships on top of everything else. Or I can just let myself lose contact with them and concentrate on getting my life together.

I appreciate any advice on the matter.