I get blamed on a lot for others mistakes around here. Even when I’ve instantly said that this was not my mistake, I am still blamed by my boss. This happened a few times, three to four to be exact. I’ve even had one time where the coworker who made the mistake came up and lectured me and walked me through the steps of how to prevent that mistake from happening again as if nothing was her fault.

I am a receptionist, but throughout the weeks I started becoming more, doing more than I was hired to do, but I didn’t mind it. I didn’t mind being a receptionist, saleswoman, cashier, customer service, order creator, stock keeper, web designer, online advertiser and company writer.

It didn’t happen because my boss told me to multi-task or that I was paid higher to put more things on my plate, it happened because a huge reason behind it is that my coworkers who are suppose to and is paid to do these things…aren’t doing them, they’re lazy.

It’s been almost half a year and I’m doing so much more, a part of me sees this as a learning experience that’ll open more opportunities in the future. But the other part of me gets out and angry when I am blamed falsely for others mistake. When my coworkers won’t even put in their effort to do a project or serve a client that we were both assigned to serve. They get commission on every client that agrees to proceed with our prices. Our process is usually them going to meet the client, confirm the order, and then I will be arrange the collection times. But, lately, the salesman who are getting commission passes me the prices and tells me to CALL their client, when they’re suppose to give out the price. So I will be calling them, confirming the price, and making the collection arrangements, whereas the salesman does nothing and gets a bonus monthly. I am sick of this. Yes it’s a learning experience but being blamed, slaved at the office is very irritating. To top it off, no matter how much I do here, I still get a low pay(I thought I would get a raise but again, it’s been almost half a year without a raise), even without a raise I thought at least I’d get appreciate, even if not appreciated that’s fine, but I’m getting bloody blamed and nitpicked for no reason by my boss and coworkers.

Just yesterday morning my I almost had a heart attack. My boss wanted flyer’s to pass out to pass-byers as an advertisement scheme. I had designed the flyer myself(because it’ll be an extra charge if we get other people to do it), and I had called the printing company and discuss with them about the price. I have printed out the price list for the flyer, with details of the flyer like size, type of paper and how many flyers do we want, basically all the information I can get. Then, I place it by my boss’s desks, later that day, he is reading it, he is holding it up and called me over. I went over, he told me to confirm this, and to tell them if we can get it as fast as possible. The printing company had already closed, so I called them the next day(Tuesday) and confirmed them immediately. Then the next day(Wednesday) morning, my boss holds up the printed price and information of the flyer, and called me over. He told me that this is out of our budget, and told me to see how much would the flyers be if they’re half of the size we want. I told my boss straight away that, they’re already printing it, because you’ve confirmed it on Monday night. He told me “no? I didn’t see the price” I was shocked rang up the company and they told me there wasn’t a way to pause the process or to stop it. I was in deep crap, because my boss won’t admit or can’t remember that he confirmed it with me and I was sure going to get a scolding out of him. But luckily in the end, the printing company’s boss is actually a friend of my own boss. So he dropped down the price and my boss agreed with it.

It is little things like these where my boss says something and then he says he didn’t that makes me stress out really bad here. Again, it’s not the only time this has happened, so can you imagine my stress level and anxiety. I have experienced going days without having a good nights sleep because of something my boss said that putted me down so much. I have gone through a time where I would break down when I got home and wondered why I was so stupid and couldn’t learn anything fast enough. But I have come to the realization that it wasn’t because I was a slow learner, it was because my coworkers who were suppose to teach me things, didn’t. They never inform me thoroughly, when they do, they do it really fast or half arsed. But before I had come to realize these things, I really did believe them when they said I was a slight slacker at work(literally they expressed their opinion of me when I first started working here, and it was on the 4th day!) The first week instead of teaching me things like they’re suppose to, they mostly got me repeating the same task of copy and pasting a paragraph that described our company and send it to a list of emails. Then they wonder why I don’t know how to do other things when they never taught me.

Anyways, I just really needed to rant. Don’t mind me. Thanks for reading if you’ve read it all the way till here.