Very true Anita. It takes a lot of strength and perseverance to go against this voice knowing that it’ll keep torturing you if you don’t go with what it says. But am trying just that from the last few days. Reminding myself of reasons why I know what it says isn’t right, and trying to distract myself with other things when it gets active. Studied until 4:30 AM today without much pause. When I tried to sleep, memories of her came back and after two days, I could not hold back my emotion. It was soon morning and I went out for a test without even feeling sleepy until the noon. I guess my newfound resolution to change myself and try to be positive, is giving me the strength to keep going for now. Dunno how long it’ll last.