Anita,

I guess what I am saying is it may have started out ok as a very young toddler. But, along the way the marital fighting became so intense that I withdrew not to return until much later in my life. When I did return I found that nothing changed. The game was still somehow “fighting is worth the love she saved”. At the time I just wanted to understand why she could never enjoy a family instead of the constant fighting. That’s what I mean by “what could have been but never was”.

Now it just seems like wasted time returning after all those years. I know life holds no guarantees. But, for most people, time has a way of changing perspectives.

Phil