Hi Kylin,
I understand how you feel about feeling anxious all the time. From what you said it looks like this anxiety comes from the hard school life you had. Maybe that’s where the solution is too. Do you feel anxious about making friends too? Do you feel people may not respond to you nicely? So then you don’t try anything.
Maybe you should make a few friends. Not because that makes you cool and popular but because you have someone to talk to and relax with. And you have the freedom to be friends with people who you want. You don’t have to force yourself to be around someone whose company you don’t really enjoy. Maybe people who are not going to judge you and are easy going and happy go lucky are for you. Perhaps in their company you’ll learn to become easy going and carefree too.
You can just start with a ‘hi’ and a smile when someone approaches you. Does it make sense to you?
Ankita
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