Hi Anita .

Thank you for your answer. But I am afraid it’s now what I asked for. Obviously your knowledge is great but not in the subject of Ascension/Awakening process. I meditate every day and the inner world I see it’s absolutely beautiful.

In ancient wisdom cultures it was understood that there were certain individuals whose craziness was the sign of a passage into a higher consciousness.

Painfully, most of my friends and family are very judgmental and bought into the doctors diagnosis that I had a mental illness, as this was their way of “explaining” what was happening to me that fit into their very limited, comfortable view of the world.

This is not to say that there is not something called mental illness. I do wonder, though, how many cases of mental illness are actually spiritual emergencies gone sour. We, as a society, need to recognize the existence of genuine spiritual emergencies and learn to differentiate them from cases of psychosis.

Thankfully, there is now even a small paragraph in the psychiatrists DSM IV Book (their diagnostic manual) titled “Spiritual or Religious Problem.” Might it be that we’re all at different stages of the spiritual emergence process?

Dear Anita

Yes correct. And also what I am saying is a bug of how possibly ONE – HALF SECOND KISS could made such a damage shock to the very core.. It’s silly but I feel I need to understand it.
So that’s why I am here. And not to share my life.
I’ve landed in a wrong forum.

Thank you. I appreciate your willingness to help.

Regards

Dear Anita

Thanks again, I hope I will find the answer but my intuition is telling me to look inside. I know it could take years until my question is answered.
I wish you all the best .

Best regards. X