Dear adyonfire4:

I am so sorry you are miserable and lonely, feeling low self worth and wondering why this has happened to you although you describe yourself as extremely good looking, hard working man with a sharp mind.

I highly recommend you attend psychotherapy with a competent, caring and hard working therapist. You deserve the peace of mind you desire and in therapy this can be achieved. In good therapy you can get the insight you need to understand what and why and how you can make your life better.

Your life can get better, professionally and socially.

Best wishes to you:

anita