And i think you will, over time dont we all start moving on and making peace with whatever has happened? Of course it cant be deleted, there is no delete button for the shit that happens in people’s lives. It does sound though that you have done what you could and have learned important lessons for life. In long-term perspective, you will make it a point to focus on friendships, to not repeat the same scenario again and will emerge stronger from this rough patch. This too shall pass. You’re a smart, good-looking and ambitious guy. Surely you will make it and fight this through.

I am also glad you have that perspective as well on life. One thing that has given me a lot of strength over the years, especially in the middle of depression is the idea that “this too shall pass” – meaning i wouldn’t forget the pain, simply learn how to bear it. I found healing through lot of spiritual reading (all kinds really), more involvement in social work and regular exercise. Keeping my mind busy was one thing that helped me from totally breaking, wondering about the infinite possibilities that could go even worse…I dont know about your friend’s husband but i do believe that your friend doesnt think you are a bad person. Nah, it has more to do with her honoring her husband’s wishes.

Eventually i hope you will find a way to make peace with whatever that has happened and get back to your peak performance.

All the best to you. May the force be with you.