I am not angry at him but I’m angry at myself. I’ve let him have way too much control over my feelings and he is someone I’ve never even met. That scares me but I do not want to lose him. I want to fight for us to be more than friends but after what I told him I’m not sure if he will want to ever talk with me again. The last thing I want is to beg for his attention – he will probably think that I’m unreliable and I’m just toying with him.