Dear all

Thanks for the reply.
I do have some good days and some bad days.
and I agree that I haven’t fully given up on her,and keep thinking things may change, and that she is not THAT bad, she probably would reflect on herself, and possibly come back and talk to me etc.
I guess letting go is quite scary in a way, and I am clinging on old memories when she is still very attached to me and very caring to me.
it’s not been very long, it’s just 3 weeks after we offically stopped contact. I guess I am still understanding myself to be in this chaotic state, it’s just a bit hard to bear at times.

Thanks everyone.

Chau