Hi anita,
I hope you are well.
I’ve been away on a trip and getting on with life. My matador has been travelling with me and I think we make a good team. I experience less fear these days but interestingly, now that I have learned to sidestep those emotional blows that used to floor me so easily, I have identified another challenge. I need to learn to stop sidestepping things that I should confront and deal with. Given my history with my mother it is no surprise that I associate dealings with authority figures of any sort with deep pain and humiliation. As a rational adult I know that not everyone is out to hurt me, but the child still quakes in her boots and tends to run away to avoid being hurt.
My matador is good at helping me deal with the fear, but I need to remember to stand firm when I should deal with issues.

It is certainly an interesting journey along this healing path. Thank you for inspiring me to start along it.

Leslie