Dear iamfreee:

Please do inquire if you can get psychotherapy/ counseling in your old high school or your yet-to-begin college. Maybe the college will make it possible for you before you start in October.

Crying made you feel better- this is understandable. Underneath your anger there is hurt. When the hurt was released through crying, you felt relief. Unfortunately, the relief is temporary, that is more processing is required, through therapy/ counseling.

For now, what can help you is to write here about your hurt, when you feel it, to express it in words: how your hurt felt then in the circumstances of the past and how it feels now, in the present circumstances (your friend in Scotland).

anita