Dear Yukiohimura11:

I don’t think you were born depressed. I think you were very hurt as a child, then you buried that hurt best you could (children do that). That hurt, buried, is never gone. It is there underneath the surface, like magma- always there. Sometimes the magma rises to the surface and explodes like lava- that is the attacks of depression you referred to.

This hurt, original hurt, needs your attention and attending to. It is like a crying baby that keeps crying because it needs someone to notice she is in distress and help her. Once you attend to your hurt, in the context of psychotherapy with a competent, caring therapist, process that hurt, understand it… then much of it will be released. It will become less powerful and there will be no more explosions of lava.

Post again, please.

anita