Maria, thank you for your encouraging story. I too wonder if my meds aren’t holding me back. As I’ve said, anytime I’ve really tried to get off them, even weaning away properly, the fall out can get pretty bad, so, of course, my husband thinks that getting of them is a bad idea. He likens it to a bipolar person feeling great and thinking they do not need medicine anymore, yet, they feel so great BECAUSE of the medicine. I understand that and sometime wonder if that is what the drug companies want since you get scared to go off it so then you always stay dependent. I try not to think of conspiracy theories though, lol.

I mean, I don’t really depressed like I used to. I do feel very out of wack at times with my emotions as I’ve said…as in..one hour I can be all lovey and the next it can go to yuck, I dont like you much. It’s such an odd feeling and it’s draining.

I agree with the exercise. I have such a hard time waking up early as it is but I know that it is the only time I can get in some exercise, so I need to really push myself there. I think starting a good, solid habit of exercise would be better to do first and then try possibly weaning off of medication. Starting a new healthy habit plus weaning off meds would not be a good combo. I am starting to eat better and taking vitamins and do notice myself eating less, so that is a plus!

As far as the job goes, my husband would love to be able to make his second job his only job, however, it is just not enough money to live on alone. He is hoping that it could turn into that and that is one of the reasons why he is really giving it his all, even thought it is really hurting our time together.