That’s so touching, Anita. Even I can’t hold back tears to this day while watching that scene… that’s why I generally skip it. I agree that the kind of love Tintin had for Chang and Mufasa for Simba, I have for Jerry. Not boasting but its just a simple fact that my heart agrees with. I know I too would be willing to put myself in line for her if she ever needs. Whether that is the kind of love I need her to have for me… truthfully, while I could not ask for anything more divine in my life, I don’t demand and expect that of her. I know I was too blinded by possessiveness earlier this year. But I know that even if she continues to hate me and consider me a pervert and monster, I’ll still love her as much until the end.

Tintin and Mufasa did have other people they loved and cared for as well, though of course Chang and Simba had a special place in their lives. I cannot deny the truth of the rest of the paragraph, though. It makes me feel guilty as it feels like such a selfish thought. I know it’s not right either as everybody has a special place in someone’s life, and I know I myself had a most special place in Jerry’s life. She called it a “unique bond nobody will ever be able to replace or break”. I wish I had just been satisfied with it instead of being greedy. But then… as soon as she found out about my feelings, she began saying we don’t know each other that well, she always had doubts about my purity of character, etc. Her beliefs caused this disaster… I know the real Jerry who loves me is still in there, somewhere. And yes… after accepting my feelings, I did not mind the thought of her loving anyone else (platonically) but if she called me “brother”, I knew I am nothing in front of her blood brother for her and someday when I got to know she’s going to be married… how would I deal with my feelings then? All this makes my head spin.